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“Cunamis” Ukmerg\u0117j 2018 vasaris<\/h3>\n\n\n\n

Kaip Dievas i\u0161spaud\u0117 mano \u0161ird\u012f kaip kempin\u0119 ir visas kart\u0117lis d\u0117l \u017emonos dingo, o mano meil\u0117 \u017emonai atsinaujino. Pasitik\u0117kim Dievu, jis \u017eino, kaip mus suremontuoti. \u0160tai jau 5 metai pra\u0117jo, o tas kart\u0117lis nesugr\u012f\u017eo. Jer 17:14 Gydyk mane, Vie\u0161patie, kad tikrai bu\u010diau i\u0161gydytas; gelb\u0117k mane, kad bu\u010diau i\u0161gelb\u0117tas, nes tu – mano gyrius. Tau, Dangi\u0161kasis T\u0117ve, visa garb\u0117 ir \u0161lov\u0117 per J\u0117z\u0173 Krist\u0173.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Va\u017eiavau vienas \u012f Ukmerg\u0117s V\u017dB banket\u0105. Tai buvo antras mano banketas. Susirinkimus jau lankiau nuo 2017 lapkri\u010dio, o liudijimus klausiau nuo 2017 rugs\u0117jo. Neatsimenu, ar niekas nenor\u0117jo va\u017eiuot, ar nieko nekvie\u010diau, bet va\u017eiavau vienas. Kaip ant sparn\u0173 l\u0117kiau, buvau pilnas ka\u017ekokio d\u017eiaugsmo. Tiesa prie\u0161 tai V\u017dB vyrai buvo pasi\u016bl\u0119 pa\u017ei\u016br\u0117ti film\u0105 “gaisrininkas”,”ogneupornyj”. Ir a\u0161 dalinausi, kad man tas filmas patiko, bet i\u0161 dalies, nes jame \u017emona i\u0161 naujo pamilsta vyr\u0105 tik tada, kai jis nuperka \u017emonos motinai nauj\u0105 invalido ve\u017eim\u0117l\u012f ir lov\u0105 jei neklystu. \u017dod\u017eiu \u017emona myli vyr\u0105 u\u017e pinigus. Amerikie\u010di\u0173 “tobulo” vyro \u012fvaizdis. V\u017dB vyrai pasi\u016bl\u0117 j\u012f pa\u017ei\u016br\u0117t, kad ir a\u0161 pergalvo\u010diau savo santykius su \u017emona. Vaidas P. man ir sako, kad gal a\u0161 bandau \u017emon\u0105 \u012fsprausti \u012f tam tikrus r\u0117mus. Jam ka\u017ekod\u0117l matosi vaizdas ir vaizdo r\u0117melis, paveikslas ir paveikslo r\u0117melis. Nu a\u0161 galvoju nieko pana\u0161aus, kaip tik a\u0161 leid\u017eiu \u017emonai elgtis kaip ji nori. Bet gr\u012f\u017eus namo ar kit\u0105 dien\u0105 at\u0117jo tokia mintis, kad gal a\u0161 DIEV\u0104 bandau \u012fsprausti \u012f ka\u017ekok\u012f sen\u0173 patir\u010di\u0173 r\u0117m\u0105, ir d\u0117l to jis pas mane neveikia taip kaip nor\u0117t\u0173si. Ir tada a\u0161 meld\u017eiausi:” Dieve, a\u0161 ne\u017einau, kaip paleisti vad\u017eias, kaip leisti tau veikti taip, kaip tu nori, kad nespraus\u010diau Tav\u0119s \u012f ka\u017ekokius r\u0117mus, kad neb\u016bt\u0173 galinio vaizdo veidrod\u0117lio principo, bet tikiu, kad tu \u017einai, ir a\u0161 atiduodu visk\u0105 \u012f tavo rankas. Veik”. Tre\u010diadien\u012f kalb\u0117jom apie film\u0105, penktadien\u012f meld\u017eiausi, o sekmadien\u012f va\u017eiavau \u012f Ukmerg\u0117s banket\u0105. Viskas vyko labai greit. Nuva\u017eiavus \u012f banket\u0105 nieko i\u0161 pa\u017e\u012fstam\u0173 nebuvo, tod\u0117l gal\u0117jau susikaupti \u012f savo vid\u0173 ir kontempliuoti Diev\u0105. Prasid\u0117jo banketas. Remigijus pasimeld\u0117, pakviet\u0117 \u010ceslov\u0105 pa\u0161lovint. Tik prad\u0117jo \u010ceslovas \u0161lovint, tik pora eilu\u010di\u0173 pagiedojo. Paskui su lyg \u017eod\u017eiais ” ateik Vie\u0161patie”, a\u0161 band\u017eiau \u012fsijausti \u012f giesm\u0119, ir mane ka\u017ekas lyg \u012ftrauk\u0117, lyg po ka\u017ekokiu vandeniu \u012ftrauk\u0117, ir v\u0117l i\u0161spjov\u0117. Ir ka\u017ek\u0105 suspaud\u0117 kr\u016btin\u0117j. Galvoj ir kr\u016btin\u0117j kar\u0161ta, kar\u0161ta pasidar\u0117 ir a\u0161 nebegal\u0117jau a\u0161ar\u0173 sulaikyt. Jausmas pana\u0161us \u012f t\u0105, kai nos\u012f u\u017esigauni, a\u0161aros varo, snargliai varo, bet tik kad skausmo n\u0117ra. Arba kaip pvz. kamuol\u012f \u012fspaudi po vandeniu ir j\u012f v\u0117l i\u0161spjauna vanduo, bet jau vis\u0105 \u0161lapi\u0105 ir b\u0117gant\u012f. Ir taip ir taip\u00a0 m\u0117ginu nusiramint ir nei\u0161eina. Anks\u010diau kai ba\u017eny\u010dioj ka\u017ek\u0105 pana\u0161aus tik ma\u017eesnio patirdavau, per mald\u0105 ar per ka\u017ekok\u012f kontempliavim\u0105, tiesiog nutraukdavau tuos apmastymus ir nusiramindavau greit. O \u010dia nu niekaip. Emocijos tiesiog neklauso man\u0119s, s\u0117d\u017eiu ir \u017eliumbiu, bet taip gera, gera. Paband\u017eiau surinkt mintis ir galvot ka\u017ek\u0105 kit\u0105, bet mintys visi\u0161kai neklaus\u0117, nieko negal\u0117jau galvot kito tik s\u0117d\u0117t ir steb\u0117t savo reakcij\u0105, ir klausyt kas giedama. Kit\u0105 giesm\u0119 u\u017egiedojo\u00a0 su \u017eod\u017eiais “ateik koks esi pas Diev\u0105” ir v\u0117l mane lyg po vandeniu \u012ftrauk\u0117, lyg \u012f nos\u012f gavau, tik skausmo nejau\u010diau, o malonum\u0105. Pasibaig\u0117 \u0161lovinimas, pakviet\u0117 visus pavalgyt. Galvoju, reik prieit prie \u010ceslovo ir pagirt, kad taip gra\u017eiai \u0161lovina. Pri\u0117jau, sakau ka\u017ek\u0105, kad gra\u017eiai gieda ir v\u0117l bac a\u0161ar\u0173 banga ir normaliai nebegaliu kalb\u0117t. Susig\u0117dau oi, oi. Emocijos visai neklaus\u0117 man\u0119s. Toliau banketas, liudijimai pra\u0117jo “ramiai”, jei gerai prisimenu. Paskui buvo maldos u\u017e poreikius laikas. Nu\u0117jau ir a\u0161 maldos. Kalbu, kalbu ir v\u0117l nieko normaliai negaliu pasakyt, prad\u0117jau verkt, o a\u0161ar\u0173 niekaip negaliu suvaldyt. Prad\u0117jo melstis ir v\u0117l “cunamis” u\u017eliejo. Stoviu ir verkiu. Pasimeld\u0117, atsisveikinom. Prieina Vilija ir sako: “kaip smagu, kad jus taip Dievas paliet\u0117”. Nu geras, galvoju, \u010dia buvo Dievas? Neb\u016b\u010diau pagalvoj\u0119s. Dar pasimeld\u017eiau u\u017e tuos, kurie pas vyrus pra\u0161\u0117 maldos. \u0116jau va\u017eiuot namo. Prie dur\u0173 dar atsisveikinau su \u010ceslovu. V\u0117l dorai nepavyko pagirt, kad gra\u017eiai pa\u0161lovino. I\u0161\u0117jau i\u0161 kavin\u0117s, net kv\u0117puot lengviau pasidar\u0117, ant kiek ten buvo pritvink\u0119 Dievo dvasios. Ai\u0161kiai jau\u010diau palengv\u0117jim\u0105 i\u0161\u0117jus. Va\u017eiuodamas namo meld\u017eiausi u\u017e visus banketo \u017emones. V\u0117l liejosi a\u0161aros ir iki pat Panev\u0117\u017eio bangos bangavo, kol galiausiai nebetur\u0117jau \u017eod\u017ei\u0173 melstis. Nurimau ir klausiausi \u0161lovinimo muzikos. Rytojaus dien\u0105 para\u0161iau Remigijui, Ukmerg\u0117s V\u017dB vadui, savo patyrimus, pra\u0161ydamas jo maldos u\u017e \u0161eim\u0105, kad gal\u0117\u010diau \u017emonai atleist, nes paskutiniu metu pe\u0161\u0117m\u0117s kaip kat\u0117 su \u0161uniu. Nebegal\u0117davau neatsikirst \u012f \u012f\u017eeidimus. Ir kai paliudijau Remigijui apie \u012fvykius, a\u0161 pajutau t\u0105 vakar\u0105 ir vis\u0105 kit\u0105 savait\u0119 jausm\u0105, lyg prad\u017eioj draugyst\u0117s su \u017emona, kai \u0161viet\u0117si gra\u017ei ateitis ir dar nebuvom vienas kitam “prisidirb\u0119”. Tuo Dievas man paliudijo, kad per tas a\u0161aras mane kaip kempin\u0119 i\u0161spaud\u0117 ir a\u0161 v\u0117l galiu sugerti \u0161eimos “ne\u0161varumus” ir juos neutralizuoti. Niekada gyvenime nesu toki\u0173 poj\u016b\u010di\u0173 tur\u0117j\u0119s, kaip tada, tokio stiprumo ir tokio negeb\u0117jimo kontroliuoti sav\u0119s. Buvau nustebintas. Dievui tikrai n\u0117ra negalim\u0173 dalyk\u0173. K\u0105 jis suplanavo, t\u0105 ir \u012fvykdys. Neturim mes b\u016bd\u0173 jam pasiprie\u0161int. Gerai, kad jis yra geras ir savo gali\u0105 naudoja, kad mus pakelt\u0173, gelb\u0117t\u0173 nuo neteising\u0173 m\u016bs\u0173 pasirinkim\u0173, nes prie\u0161ingu atveju mes netur\u0117tum\u0117m, kur nuo jo pasisl\u0117pt, nes jis gali mus pasiekti i\u0161 i\u0161or\u0117s per situacijas, aplinkybes ir \u017emones, o taip pat ir i\u0161 vidaus, per mintis, emocijas ir pan. A\u010di\u016b Dievui, kad jis mus myli. Jam pad\u0117ka ir gyrius.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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