{"id":558,"date":"2022-01-10T11:18:06","date_gmt":"2022-01-10T09:18:06","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/jgs.lt\/?page_id=558"},"modified":"2023-06-23T20:42:03","modified_gmt":"2023-06-23T17:42:03","slug":"prasyk-dievo-meiles","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/jgs.lt\/index.php\/liudijimai\/prasyk-dievo-meiles\/","title":{"rendered":"Pra\u0161yk Dievo meil\u0117s"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<div class=\"wp-block-cover alignfull is-light\" style=\"min-height:200px;aspect-ratio:unset;\"><span aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-cover__background has-background-dim-40 has-background-dim\"><\/span><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"1024\" height=\"340\" class=\"wp-block-cover__image-background wp-image-71\" alt=\"\" src=\"https:\/\/jgs.lt\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/09\/services-bg-1024x340.jpg\" style=\"object-position:4% 27%\" data-object-fit=\"cover\" data-object-position=\"4% 27%\" srcset=\"https:\/\/jgs.lt\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/09\/services-bg-1024x340.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/jgs.lt\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/09\/services-bg-300x100.jpg 300w, https:\/\/jgs.lt\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/09\/services-bg-768x255.jpg 768w, https:\/\/jgs.lt\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/09\/services-bg-1536x510.jpg 1536w, https:\/\/jgs.lt\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/09\/services-bg.jpg 1920w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 1024px) 100vw, 1024px\" \/><div class=\"wp-block-cover__inner-container is-layout-flow wp-block-cover-is-layout-flow\">\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center has-large-font-size\"><strong>Liudijimai<\/strong><\/p>\n<\/div><\/div>\n\n\n\n<p><a href=\"https:\/\/jgs.lt\/en\/index.php\/testimonies\/ask-god-for-his-love\/\" title=\"English\"><strong>English<\/strong><\/a><\/p>\n\n\n\n<h3 class=\"wp-block-heading has-text-align-center\" id=\"sunaus-palaiduno-pamokslas-2019-04-21\"><strong>S\u016bnaus palaid\u016bno pamokslas<\/strong> <strong>2019-04-21<\/strong><\/h3>\n\n\n\n<p>Kaip a\u0161 pra\u0161iau Diev\u0105, parodyti man Jo meil\u0119, ir Jis atsak\u0117 \u012f mano mald\u0105. Ir kaip paskui piktasis vargino mane vis\u0105 savait\u0119.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Buvau sekmadien\u012f ba\u017eny\u010dioj, kaip ir kiekvien\u0105 sekmadien\u012f ir m\u016bs\u0173 parapijos klebonas pasak\u0117 pamoksl\u0105 apie s\u016bn\u0173 palaid\u016bn\u0105. Ir jis pasak\u0117, kad reikia melst Diev\u0105 meil\u0117s, kad duot\u0173. A\u0161 nusprend\u017eiau i\u0161bandyti tai. Pirmadien\u012f buvo labai geri darbai \u016bkyje, va\u017eiavau kultivuoti lauk\u0173, o toks darbas gerai tuo, kad gali ir pasimelst, ir paklausyt \u0161lovinimo giesmi\u0173 ir \u0161iaip pam\u0105styt apie Diev\u0105, ka\u017ek\u0105 jam i\u0161sakyt, pab\u016bt su juo kontempliatyviai, viens kitam netrukdo. Tai ryte va\u017eiuodamas meld\u017eiau Diev\u0105, i\u0161lieti man savo meil\u0119, leisti man j\u0105 pajausti. Kad Dievas \u017emog\u0173 myli visada, tai a\u0161 \u017einojau, bet kad reikia dar papildomai tiesmukai pra\u0161yti, kad leist\u0173 j\u0105 pajausti, tai taip negalvojau. Va\u017eiuoju a\u0161 tam traktory, klausausi \u0161lovinimo giesmi\u0173, meld\u017eiuosi, ir taip jau\u010diu kaip viena po kitos pradeda eiti mintys, taip giliai palie\u010dian\u010dios, taip u\u017e \u0161irdies griebian\u010dios, taip ka\u017ek\u0105 suvirpinan\u010dios, atrodo norisi tik b\u016bt tame, i\u0161gyventi tai, kas vyksta ir \u2026 verkti. Kitokia reakcija ka\u017ekaip nesigauna. Tiesiog jauti, kad tu esi mylimas, tau mintys parodo, \u010dia tu buvai mylimas, \u010dia buvo meil\u0117 ir pan, ir taip viskas tokiomis bangomis \u0117jo ir \u0117jo gal 2 ar 3, o gal ir 4 valandas. Vis atrodo panyru \u012f t\u0105 b\u016bsen\u0105 ir v\u0117l i\u0161nyru. Atsigaunu ir v\u0117l nauja banga ateina. Sunku apibudint t\u0105 jausm\u0105 \u017eod\u017eiais. Ar tai meil\u0117? Tai ne pana\u0161u \u012f meil\u0119 moteriai, broliui ar t\u0117vams, gal kai kuriais aspektais pana\u0161u \u012f meil\u0119 vaikui, bet tik kai kur. B\u016bsena pana\u0161i \u012f lengv\u0105 girtum\u0105 (dvasioje): kar\u0161ta, \u0161ioks toks svaigulys, negaliu pasakyt, kad pakili nuotaika, bet kad jausmai atsileid\u0119, be stabd\u017ei\u0173, tai tikrai, nors protas ai\u0161kus ai\u0161kiausias, vairuot n\u0117 kiek netrukdo. \u010cia gal nepaai\u0161kinsi \u017eod\u017eiais. \u017dod\u017eiu \u2026 po piet jau jau\u010diu, kad viskas, a\u0161 jau nebepakeliu t\u0173 jausm\u0173, t\u0173 min\u010di\u0173, galiu tik vairuot ir \u012f \u201cvien\u0105 ta\u0161k\u0105 \u017ei\u016br\u0117t\u201d, nebeturiu j\u0117g\u0173 m\u0105styt.<br>Kit\u0105 dien\u0105 sakau na vakaryk\u0161t\u0117 diena labai patiko, reikia v\u0117l pra\u0161yti Diev\u0105 meil\u0117s, kad jis ja mane pasotint\u0173 ir a\u0161 neie\u0161ko\u010diau joki\u0173 nusiskausminim\u0173 nuo pasaulio, nuo sunkum\u0173, kad jis b\u016bt\u0173 mano narkotikas, kur\u012f pavartojus u\u017esimir\u0161t\u0173 sunkumai, nuovargis ir pan. T\u0105 dien v\u0117l darbai buvo su traktorium ir ta busena v\u0117l mane pagavo, u\u017epl\u016bdo, tik trumpesniam laikui, nes nepakeli \u017emogus ilgai toki\u0173 jausm\u0173.<br>Paskui sekan\u010diomis dienomis a\u0161 nors t\u0173 pa\u010di\u0173 dalyk\u0173 melsdavau, nieko pana\u0161aus nebepatyriau. Veikiau prie\u0161ingai, viskas staigiai bl\u0117so ir pasijutau lyg atsid\u016br\u0119s \u201cdykumoj\u201d: meldiesi, bet nejauti, kad esi i\u0161klausomas, ir kad gauni pagalb\u0105, j\u0117g\u0173 eiti kasdieniniu keliu, o viduje pradeda rastis nuodingos, toksi\u0161kos mintys, kurios i\u0161\u010diulpia tavo dvasines j\u0117gas eiti su Vie\u0161pa\u010diu, pradeda daugintis abejon\u0117s, priekai\u0161tai Dievui, kad ne\u012fmanoma eiti Dievo nurodytu keliu, ir kad \u017emogui visada lemta b\u016bt pralaim\u0117toju kovoj su nuod\u0117me, kas laimi, tai tik J\u0117zus, bet mano dalia visada kaip pralaim\u0117tojo, n\u0117ra kuo did\u017eiuotis. \u010cia gal puikyb\u0117 prabyla? Arba a\u0161 matau, kad mano gyvenime Dievas gali \u012fvykdyti, tai k\u0105 \u0161ventam ra\u0161te pa\u017ead\u0117jo, bet a\u0161 tai negaliu savo dalies tobulai \u012fvykdyt, a\u0161 vis suklumpu ir suklumpu, tai kaip galiu tik\u0117tis, kad Dievas elgsis pagal savo pa\u017ead\u0105 apie palaiminimus, o ne apie prakeikimus. Ir tokios ir pana\u0161ios mintys mane per vis\u0105 dien\u0105 nukamuoja. Meldiesi ir kaip \u012f sien\u0105, nei ta b\u016bsena pa\u0161alinama nei kovai nauj\u0173 j\u0117g\u0173 kit\u0105 dien\u0105 atsiranda.Ryte atsikeli labiau pavarg\u0119s negu atsigulei vakar. Galiausiai ir melstis ar Dievui ka\u017ek\u0105 kalb\u0117ti dingsta noras. Nebeturi j\u0117g\u0173, min\u010di\u0173 atsikirtin\u0117jimui ir pan. Bet vis stengies klausyt per ausinuk\u0105 \u0161lovinimo giesmi\u0173, kad nors ka\u017ekiek u\u017etildyt\u0173 tas toksi\u0161kas mintis, permu\u0161t\u0173 jas.<br>Ka\u017ekur po savait\u0117s tame visame i\u0161vargime(dvasiniame) sakau Dievui: &#8220;negi Tu v\u0117l mane tikrini, tiri mano \u0161ird\u012f, \u017ei\u016bri kaip a\u0161 pasielgsiu \u0161ituose sunkumuose, ar a\u0161 remsiuosi \u012f Tave, ar ie\u0161kosiu nusiskausminimo ar ka\u017ekokio u\u017esimir\u0161imo \u017eemi\u0161kuose dalykuose? Sakau, \u0161\u012f kart nors ir \u012f vien\u0105 ta\u0161k\u0105 reiks \u017ei\u016br\u0117t nukankintam t\u0173 min\u010di\u0173 a\u0161 neie\u0161kosiu u\u017esimir\u0161imo \u017eemi\u0161kuose dalykuose&#8221;. ( A\u0161 \u017einau, kad man tokie juod\u017eiausi i\u0161bandymai, sunkumai netrunka ilgiau nei kokias 3-4 dienas, reikia ka\u017ekaip pralaukti ir, kaip pas lozoriu ateis J\u0117zus ir, nors pav\u0117lav\u0119s, bet v\u0117l prikels i\u0161 to numirimo). Toliau buvo t\u0105 vakar\u0105 tyla i\u0161 Dievo pus\u0117s.<br>Kit\u0105 dien v\u0117l a\u0161 tose toksi\u0161kose mintyse, kad n\u0117r garantijos, d\u0117l \u017emogaus i\u0161gelb\u0117jimo, nes \u017emogus ne\u017einai kada mirsi ir realiai ne\u017einai ar nemirsi su kokia nuod\u0117me po paskutin\u0117s i\u0161pa\u017einties ir t.t. d\u0117l savo netobulumo \u017emogus ir J\u0117zaus kry\u017eiumi gali tobulai nepasinaudot, nes \u017emogus gyveni ir tai ten, tai \u0161en susipurvini, o kada mirsi ne\u017einai. Eina toks destruktyvas ir realiai jis tave tal\u017eo, nes nerandi argument\u0173, kaip jam atsikirst ar j\u012f sustabdyt, nes tave suvaro ir suvaro, visi tavo argumentai sud\u016b\u017eta ateina\u010diose abejon\u0117se. Ir vienu momentu at\u0117jo tokia mintis: &#8220;kas i\u0161pa\u017eins mane \u017emoni\u0173 akivaizdoj, t\u0105 ir a\u0161 i\u0161pa\u017einsiu savo Dangi\u0161kojo T\u0117vo akivaizdoj&#8221;. Po \u0161itos minties at\u0117jo ai\u0161kus supratimas, mano nuod\u0117m\u0117s bus nu\u0161luotos J\u0117zaus gailestingumo Dangi\u0161kojo T\u0117vo akivaizdoje kaip potvynio vandens, jei a\u0161 jo darbus garsinsiu kitiems \u017emon\u0117ms. Ir tuo pat metu pajutau, kad \u012f mane v\u0117l pradeda lietis tokia Dievo meil\u0117, kad joje nieko negali galvot, gali tik plaukt pasroviui ir \u2026 tik raudot. Lyg per i\u0161d\u017eiuvusios up\u0117s dugn\u0105 atiteka potvynio vanduo ir TAI mane u\u017elieja. Tais dalykais nor\u0117jau pasidalinti nor\u0117damas ne save pagirti koks a\u0161 geras maldininkas, bet nor\u0117damas atiduoti Dangi\u0161kajam T\u0117vui priklausan\u010di\u0105 garb\u0119 ir \u0161lov\u0119 per J\u0117z\u0173 Krist\u0173, nes visus dalykus gauni dovanai, kaip dievo meil\u0117s \u012frodym\u0105, ne kad ka\u017ekaip nusipelnei, nes pats save analizuodamas tikrai matai, kad tur\u0117tum susilaukt str\u0117li\u0173 savo adresu ar ma\u017e\u0173 ma\u017eiausiai rimto pabarimo. Kai mane v\u0117l u\u017eliejo ta nauja Dievi\u0161kos meil\u0117s banga, Dievas man atskleid\u0117, vieno sakinio reik\u0161m\u0119, kur\u012f man pasak\u0117 karininkas, kai paskyr\u0117 mane atlikti karo tarnyb\u0105 \u012f ginkl\u0173 arsenal\u0105. Kai a\u0161 tur\u0117jau eiti \u012f komisariat\u0105 i\u0161siai\u0161kinti, kur mane paskirs. Pri\u0117jus prie karininko, kuris skirst\u0117, kam kur tarnauti, kai pri\u0117jo mano eil\u0117 ir a\u0161 pri\u0117jau, jis psi\u017ei\u016br\u0117jo \u012f savo popierius, ir i\u0161tar\u0117 vien\u0105 vienintel\u012f sakin\u012f ir nieko nepai\u0161kino. Jis pasak\u0117: &#8220;nu su tokia reputacija, tik \u012f arsenal\u0105&#8221;. A\u0161 klausiau: &#8220;o kokia mano reputacija, kas blogai&#8221;. Jis nieko net nesiruo\u0161\u0117 man ai\u0161kint, sako: &#8220;eik,.. kitas&#8221;. Tas sakinys giliai \u012fsira\u0161\u0117 \u012f &#8220;failus&#8221; ir nedav\u0117 ilgus metus man ramyb\u0117s. &#8220;Kokia gi ta mano reputacija&#8221;. O skaitydamas biblij\u0105 a\u0161 matydavau, kad kai izraelitai eidavo \u012f kar\u0105, at\u0117j\u0119 \u012f viet\u0105 jie pasistatydavo stovykl\u0105(arsenal\u0105), o vieni liktadvo saugoti mantos ir stovyklos, o kiti eidavo \u012f front\u0105, \u012f m\u016b\u0161\u012f. Tai va, kai mane u\u017eliejo ta tre\u010dioji Dievo meil\u0117s banga, jis paai\u0161kino man, k\u0105 rei\u0161ki\u0105 tas karininko sakinys: &#8221; su tokia reputacija tik \u012f arsenal\u0105&#8221;. Su mano reputacija, jei ir b\u016bt\u0173 karas, Dievas mane pristatys prie mantos, stovyklos saugojimo, kur saugu, ramu, kur bus \u012f valias laiko maldai ir buvimui su Dievu ir nereiks man eiti \u012f front\u0105, kur did\u017eiulis pavojus \u017e\u016bti ir pan. Jis tada galiausiai sud\u0117liojo \u012f vietas visas puzl\u0117s detales ir prie\u0161 mane atsiv\u0117r\u0117 paveikslas apie Dievo meil\u0119, kur\u012f pri\u0117mus \u0161irdimi, taip ka\u017ek\u0105 viduje suvirpino v\u0117l, kad gali tik b\u016bti tame ir raudoti, nes tiesiog n\u0117r \u017eod\u017ei\u0173, tam kas tuo metu tavyje darosi. Nuo to sakinio i\u0161sakymo, iki paai\u0161kinimo Dievas lauk\u0117 22- 23 m. Ir tas sakinys niekur mano min\u010di\u0173 labirintuose nepasimet\u0117. Tai \u012fmanoma tik Dievui. Jo \u017eodis am\u017einas. Jei Dievas j\u012f \u012f tave \u012fspaud\u0117, tai jis i\u0161liks tavo galvoj am\u017einai. A\u010di\u016b tau Dangi\u0161kasis T\u0117ve u\u017e neapsakom\u0105 Tavo meil\u0119. \u0160lovinsiu ir girsiu Tave kol gyvensiu. Vertas esi visos garb\u0117s ir \u0161lov\u0117s. Amen.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p> <a href=\"https:\/\/jgs.lt\/index.php\/pradzia\/liudijimai\/\" title=\"Liudijimai\">Gr\u012f\u017eti \u012f liudijimus<\/a> <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>English S\u016bnaus palaid\u016bno pamokslas 2019-04-21 Kaip a\u0161 pra\u0161iau Diev\u0105, parodyti man Jo meil\u0119, ir Jis atsak\u0117 \u012f mano mald\u0105. Ir kaip paskui piktasis vargino mane vis\u0105 savait\u0119. Buvau sekmadien\u012f ba\u017eny\u010dioj, kaip ir kiekvien\u0105 sekmadien\u012f ir m\u016bs\u0173 parapijos klebonas pasak\u0117 pamoksl\u0105 apie s\u016bn\u0173 palaid\u016bn\u0105. Ir jis pasak\u0117, kad reikia melst Diev\u0105 meil\u0117s, kad duot\u0173. 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